In my drawer now sleep happily five days' worth of tamoxifen pills. In my basket of bathroom things is a bottle of B6 (bonus: it was on sale). I think I'm about five days from the end of my cycle. This is totally the JV version of IF drugs, but sort of a watershed for me, all at the same time. I'm mostly blase, but a little nervous, a little excited, a little trepidatious.
And, I'm definitely PMSy. I can feel a tight, un-unwindable knot of being difficult in the pit of my stomach. And even though I know just what it is, I have no intention of not being difficult. I want to take a nap, be hostile to others, maybe go somewhere and cry, or maybe have my husband all to myself. Not be flexible and pleasant. This is just how I'm going to be.
My friend who has the returning endo apparently got some really bad news at PPVI, but I heard the "details" from my husband, who heard them from her husband's cousin. Who is a confirmed bachelor. Needless to say, it's not clear to me what the actual problem is - something about her ovaries? (I know.) She was in Nebraska for a week. Please pray for her - apparently she's taken it kind of hard. I mean, obviously.
And, please pray for LIM and her family.