Because I think I need it.
Sometimes it seems as though the world is falling apart, even though, objectively, it probably isn't. I have a colleague with whom I cannot deal and although my boss (who really is good at this stuff) seems to have come up with an arrangement that will basically deal with the problem, I feel like I need a vacation just to decompress from that (and I just had a four-day weekend).
And I'm so tired of my husband being forever away. Our marriage does just sort of run on autopilot a lot of the time (and most marriages seem to when not in active crisis, right?), but give it enough time with him away, and I realize that it does not really function that way all the time. There are things I need to discuss with him for which email does not cut it.
And speaking of communication issues - guess who called me on Monday AND Tuesday last week? If you guessed that the office manager called me Monday (after a nurse called Monday morning to tell me that the office manager would be calling) and Dr. B called me Tuesday (the day that same nurse let me know he would be in - all in a tone of real concern), you would be WRONG. They haven't called AT ALL. No voicemails. No missed calls. Nothing. This morning, I left a message asking to be connected to the Patient Ombudsman. I don't expect a call back from that, either. I note that I also have not yet received the results of the thyroid bloodwork done in mid-July. I told them two weeks ago that I was increasing my dose of thyroid by 50% if I didn't hear differently, and I have done so, but it would still be nice to get the results, you know?
Also, I have an appointment scheduled with Dr. L/C this Friday, which should be awesome. I'm thinking of calling the records gal Thursday morning and telling her that I plan to pick up a photocopy of every shred of paper in my file when I'm there Friday - and she can just include the thyroid results in the stack. What do you think? Too confrontational? Not confrontational enough?
Also, at my physical on Friday, I meant to get a referral for an RE at the local hospital, but forgot. I'll call the internist and leave a message asking for a referral (complicated, of course, being that I'm asking about treatment other than IVF or IUI, but that's what I get for forgetting). I'd love to know if there's even anyone to whom I could be referred.
Oh, also also: at my physical appointment - at which I expected a referral to a dermatologist (check) and nothing else interesting, I got - something else interesting. Allegedly I have a congenital heart defect that causes intermittent tachycardia and really no other problems. (To be confirmed by a cardiologist, to whom I also have a referral.) I've definitely had that intermittent tachycardia, you know, intermittently - I just assumed that everyone did :). Isn't that exciting?