And yes, I did wonder - totally against my better judgment that said it was clear that this was the wrong time for implantation pain and could be easily and obviously explained by the tamoxifen - whether the funny cramps might not be something else. But when I woke up this morning, my stomach felt just faintly painful, and it was the old familiar - I knew. I had predicted today would be CD1 (for which I'm reasonably pleased with myself - peak day was a total guess because of the screwy CM and missing temps, and I'm on a new medication, but I was still dead on!).
Frankly, I wouldn't have known what to make of a pregnancy this month. I neither deserve nor want to be rewarded for being hopeless and bitter. So while the removal of a possible fun surprise was a mild disappointment, really, it's just as it should be, and life goes on. I'm even in a good mood, which is a bit unusual for CD1. (We shall see whether it lasts.)
And maybe some of you expert-type people will agree with me that (other than the CM disaster) there are mild improvements. Though apparently not to my image-posting skills [IT'S UNREASONABLY TINY AGAIN - ARGGHHH!]. I would say "check it out," but you really can't see this and it doesn't appear to have linked to a larger version of itself (!!!):